ability to draw has been regained.

a happy tygurrwuffie am i.

that is all.

the view from my new place is so amazing. it's one that you could just sit and stare at all the time. my bedroom looks out over the parking lot (unfortunately) however if you go out to the living room and it overlooks a gigantic lake (big enough where if it's windy there are actually small waves-not ripples, waves). the living room also faces the west so i get to see the sunset on this lake every night. i can't even describe how beautiful it is, last night i was just sitting there watching the sunset (something i love doing), watching the boaters out (yes it's big enough for boaters-this isn't just a little pond), listening to the birds and ducks and geese and for the first time in a very long time i was completely and utterly happy. i was able to just sit and watch something beautiful and be completely at peace for awhile. 

every year for spring break i used to go to florida to visit my grandparents and they had a condo that was right across the street from the ocean. when you looked off the balcony you could see the ocean, walk across the street and you were on the beach. the view from my new apartment reminds me of this. standing on the balcony (i'm on the 3rd floor) if you look down there's a small dock with a few boats and then look out across the lake and the sun's reflection is always cast on it. last night there was just enough wind to put little ripples in the water making the sun shimmer. there is something so soothing about water and the sounds of the waves. very calming.

when i can i shall take pics and put them up so you all can see just what i'm talking about. for now i will leave you with a word of advice: take time to stop and enjoy the little things. smell the roses, watch a sunset/sunrise, enjoy the company of a good friend. enjoy life, don't let it be run over with things that aren't enjoyable to you. this is what i plan to try to do.

so i've recently come to the conclusion that when i can i'm not only moving out of my mom's place. but most likely away..as in to another state. though i haven't decided what state yet i'm thinking somewhere that has warm weather. i need warm weather, doesn't have to be year round but i also can't take a lot of cold weather. 

and though earlier issues have been resolved (yea the ones you were concerned about me still having bandrik) another issue has come about. not sure lj is really the place to talk it though considering...it'll affect about 3 different people and they all read my lj. go figure =-P more on this later.

my easter was interesting. i actually talked to my dad yesterday. i called him just to see how he was going to say happy easter and we actually left it at that. well i asked how some members of his side of the family were doing (like my grandma who suffers from alzheimers and my half who i found out drives my dream truck). but other than that the conversation was totally cool, normal, and nice even. now lets just hope that the drunken 2am phone calls don't start *crosses fingers*.

other than that my day was pretty easy. i thought mom would drag me to church with her but she didn't. she didn't even go herself which shocked the hell outta me cause she always goes on holidays. there was some get together at my cousins but we weren't invited. hm why weren't we invited? b/c i don't agree with the entire families view that christianity is the only religion that should be practiced and mom allows me to live with her knwoing all this. oh well. i don't wanna be with a bunch of people who don't practice what they preach anyway. however half way through the day mom did ask me why i never want to attend church, why i never ask to go. i told her that i never have liked going. and that's the truth-when i was a kid i remember asking to stay home when she went and then always looking at my watch every five minutes (literally) all through the service when she forced me to go. to me church was always boring...as for why i don't want to go now...i think that answer is obvious to just about everyone reading this and if you don't know it's cause i'm pagan, not christian.

saturday was an *extremely* good day. i got a piece of news that i've wanted to hear for so long...well for about 5 months now. i was really happy to hear it and i'm still all giddy about it. more on this topic later. for now? needing to head home to take care of a few things. ^_^

in the past few days i have seen numerous things that indicate spring has arrived. these would include:

-robins
-geese
-bees
-gnats

now the only thing out of that list that i like is the robins. geese are ok, i can deal with'em...bees well bees are just annoying especially if like me you like to garden and gnats...it's not fun walking straight through a ball of gnats which yes i did this morning. 

also if i was going to go fishing i would have no problems what so ever finding worms to do so. last night it rained here and the lightning and thunder from the storm actually woke me up (i can't remember when it ever did that). all the rain has washed up a bunch of worms so now on every sidewalk around here i can find atleast 10 worms.